Goodbye House

I said goodbye, goodbye to an old form of myself. I boarded up all the windows. All the doors were bolted shut. Everything that once crept in was no longer allowed an entrance.  

I said goodbye to the feeling of being wanted, goodbye to the need of being needed, goodbye to all shimmers of love.  

I boarded up that old form of myself and did not let her escape thinking that was the only way to move on.  

I was wrong.  

I had also boarded up the good parts, the happy parts and even the parts that helped me grow.  

I did not know it; I was lost and scared pretending to be unharmed. I was looking for warmth without knowing it.  

Then something happened, 

You showed up. Out of the blue, I had surrounded myself with piles of burned-out coal just to make sure that nothing could ever catch fire.  

But you, you came in and lit match to the biggest fire I had ever seen. The flames so high so strong I could barely keep my eyes open. 

I did not know if this was here to keep me warm or burn me.  

I let myself be consumed by the raging flame. I allowed the warmth; I allowed the light to guide me. I allowed it to consume every single part of me. 

I was blind and did not see that you were burning down the safe house that held my past. You were destroying everything I had kept so hidden.  

I watched the flames burn everything into ash.  

I saw every bit of myself released with the smoke. 

All forms of my hidden self were now gone. 

You burned all aspects of my boarded-up house. You came in with such intensity.  

You helped me release the beaming light that was being hindered by the ghost of my past.