Well, here I am still sticking it out, trying to figure it all out. Today is day 2 of my attempting to cultivate this calling. With trying to figure out how to naviagte daily life, motherhood, and the new venture of being what many would call a “writer”. Wow, that still sounds wrong, I don not feel like I have earned that title yet. Soon, I hope.
Today I entered a new era of in my life a new identity, my identity as a 29 year old woman with braces. Now, I know that many people have braces in their adulthood but this was a defyning moment for me. Braces are not just a tool to help get my “midline in place” as my orthodontist would say; they are also a representation of my acheivement and privallege.
What do I mean by that? Well, growing up as an immigrant child to a young single mother of 2, who was trying to figure out her identity did not ecactly offer the chance to afford such a luxiourious procedure. Where we came from teeth were the least of your problems, as long as you had teeth and they were brushed it was fine.
Now being able to take this opportunity was huge! Not only from a financial stand point but from a emotional on as well. I was not a grown adult who could make this decion on her own without consulting anyone. Yes, even at 29 I still feel as if I am a child playing adult. Wondering who allowed me to have so much responsability.
Braces are now my new idenity, a new chapter, as I stood there starring at myself in the mirror smiling like a complete goof; I realized that I have had many identies, there has always beeen some big thing or event that has defined me. It made me think that I do not really know all these identies are molding me up to be. I do know that each one has brought great stories, memories, and lessons.
Braces will bring just one more story to add. If anything, it will at least make my face centered. Hey, maybe that will bring a whole new face along with the next identity. Haha. We shall see.
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